As I Say, Not As I Do

I have a big mouth. Not dentally, my dentist assures me, but with what comes out of it. I have a bad habit of giving very good, godly advice to friends and family but not following it myself. Sometimes, I feel like I'm on the outside of myself watching myself make crazy mistakes. STUPID, STUPID, STUPID!!! At that point, my watching self needs to hit my acting self in the head.

Sometimes it takes us awhile to grow up, I think. We hope that the consequences of our actions won't be able to catch us. Maybe, just maybe, we're the only ones in the world who won't have to pay the piper. Life doesn't work that way, though. It especially doesn't work like that if you are a believer. "He disciplines those He loves," etc...etc...etc....

I'm not what I wish I were. And, unless I'm obedient, I never will be. What about you? Is it time to pay the piper and move on?

The Things We Want

I find it ironic and both a tribute and a curse to human nature that one can feel a deep sense of grief and loss for something that never belonged to them. Our minds and hearts love and engulf that which they have no right to own. If something is not freely given, it can never be fully possessed. Our attmepts at manipulation, strategy and charm are a waste because force never creates free surrender.


"Cease striving and know that I am God..."